Yesterday felt like a Total Fail as far as parenting goes.
The details don’t matter… it was a combination of my own emotional struggle yesterday, fatigue for all of us, missing Daddy, and general overwhelmed-ness.
In thinking about it, I am reminded of the Maya Angelou quote that floats around quite a bit~
I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
Yesterday, my youngest daughter’s behavior made me feel like this:
In turn, I likely made her feel like this:
Sometimes, there is just too much going on at one time, and though I shout from the rooftops, “FAMILY FIRST!” I don’t always take action to make it be that way.
But really, once the day is over, what can we do about it?
My mama-friends would say, “Start over tomorrow.”
One of them has inspired me to pray, “Lord, redeem the time.”
And I said to myself, “Use the time you do have, right now.”
So, despite the voices in my head that say things like, “Let her sleep” or “She won’t remember,” when it was time for me to go to sleep, I picked my sleeping 4 year-old up and brought her to bed with me.
She woke up around 3am and I heard,
“Mama, why are you in here?”
I said: “I brought you in my bed.”
She said: “Why?”
I said: “Because I wanted to be with you.”
And then we slept.
I am never going to get it right all the time, and sometimes I will totally fail. But may I always remember to try to redeem the time.