A year ago tonight, two people said goodnight to their baby for the last time.

I can’t get it out of my head.

We had a great day at the zoo today, and then a chaotic evening, and I have all this work that really does need to be done right now…

But I can’t get it out of my head.

Daddy does the tucking in here… so I just gave Miranda and Kaity extra kisses and now I am fighting the urge to cry and the fear creeping inside me. I lived for almost 30 years without them… and I can’t imagine one day without them.

I will write more tomorrow about the ‘anniversary’ that is taking place. And I know this blog is becoming a repetitive theme, but I am praying for those I know who have lost their babies and hope you will too. I feel so burdened and heartbroken by it, and so, I cannot even fathom how they walk through, and I admire them so deeply because they do.